Llamado a Servir en España: A transfer call to Utah...

Mis queridos amigos y mi familia,

I never thought this week would have to come or the conclusion would end up being what it is, but I know the Lord has a perfect plan and I am ready to trust Him. Thank you ALL for your sweetest emails, thoughts and prayers! I have felt Heaven's hand and my Heavenly Father's love for me through all of you! I am so sorry to have kept so,e of you up late at night or not able to work or anything else just worrying about me. Thank you thank you thank you for all of your thoughts! I feel so blessed to have each one of you in my life and I am already feeling better because of your emails and prayers! Thank you!

So here we go with the final decision...

On Monday afternoon I had what will be my last interview with President Dayton for a little while. He asked me how I was doing and then told me something that I never wanted to hear. "Due to the injury in your hip that still hasn't healed, we need to send you home to recover for awhile". My heart has never pounded so fast in my life as it did then and I started to cry. I never thought I would have to hear those words come out of my mission presidents mouth in an interview with me. It was probably one of the hardest things I have ever had to hear. But I felt at peace as pr side to continued to talk to me and counsel me on how I could continue to be a missionary at home and what our "game plan" is. I know that Heavenly Father has a perfect plan. To be honest, I have absolutely NO idea why this is part of that plan, but I'll just keep trusting Him every step of the way.

I have a lot of fears about going home and I am really nervous about what will happen. But I will put all of those fears aside if that is what the lord wants because He knows better than I do and through this all He will teach me that none of those things really matter. What matters is being 100% dedicated and consecrated to whatever He asks of me and whatever His will is... Even when it is hard and even when it's not what I want to do. Elder Bednar said, "strong faith in the savior is submissively accepting of His will and timing in our lives, even if the outcome is not what we hoped for or wanted". This is definitely one of those moments in my life where I know what the will of the Lord is and even though it is not even close to what I wanted... I will do it. Because I want to show my faith in Him and I want Him to be able to trust me later when He needs me to do even harder things. I want Him to know that I am here to do what He asks of me and do it with a willing heart. Just like my dad's favorite scripture, "speak lord, for thy servant heareth". I have heard His voice and His will countless times and now it is time to act. I love my Heavenly Father and Savior and because of that love I have for them, I am willing to do what they ask of me even though it is hard and even though it will involve sacrificing a few of my favorite things and people and places. Why?? Because, If it is to do His will, then none of that matters. I will be dedicated and consecrated and let Him steer the course for my life. My hand is in His and I'm ready to follow.

I truly do know with all of my heart that Heavenly Father has a perfect plan. Just like one of my friends, Jessi, said to me this week, "You may not end up where you thought you'd be, but you'll end up right where you're meant to be". I know that Heavenly Father is leading and guiding me to where He needs me to be. President gave me a blessing this week of comfort and I love that in it I was told that my offering of my mission so far has been accepted by the Lord and now I just need to put my trust in His will and everything will be ok. When I heard those words, I felt like I was being wrapped in a big hug from my Heavenly Father and I felt at peace. The Dayton's and Morejons stood around me talking to me and gave me advice for about 30 minutes. It was the sweetest experience and I loved every moment of it.

There have been so many thoughts running through my mind ever since President told me I would be going home, but I don't know what the future holds, only Heavenly Father knows. I am willing and ready to trust in my Heavenly Father because He can see the big picture and I cannot. Just like Grandpa Eyring always says, "there are no coincidences, there are no accidents. Heavenly Father runs our lives in detail and in advance." There is a reason for all of this, I know there is. Even though it is a hard trial to go through and will continue to be hard, I know Heavenly Father is in charge and as I put my life in His hands and align my will with His then everything will be alright in the end. And if it's not alright then it's not the end :) I am so sad... So so so so so so so sad (I can't even express how sad I am) To have to leave my incredible country of Spain. With my whole heart I want to stay here and keep serving. BUT, with even more of my whole heart I want to do the will of my Father in Heaven and I know that I will see blessings as I do so. This is His work and not ours. So we must do His work in His way. Right now "His way" is for me to be at home to recover. Mark 10:49 says, "Jesus stood still, and commanded him to be called. And they call the blind man, saying unto him, Be of good comfort, rise; he calleth thee." Right now I feel like I am blindly stepping off of a cliff because this was not ANYWHERE in my plan and I don't know what is going to happen. But just as Christ called the blind man to come to Him, He is now calling me. And as I follow Him He will one day "heal me" that I might "see" clearly the wonderful blessings that come from this trial. I know that as we take little steps of faith into the darkness that Heavenly Father will "catch us" and little by little the blind fold will come off and we will be able to see what we couldnt see before. I am grateful for challenges. I am grateful for the past 8 months of my mission and I can't wait to continue this wonderful mission... Not just here in Spain, but my life long mission to strive to do the will of the Lord at all times. I know He has a perfect plan for each one of us, and I can't wait to see what lies in store in the perfect plan He has for me. I know as I rely on my savior Jesus Christ at all times that I will have access to the atonement in cualquier momento. He loves each one of us and understands every pain that we go through and is there to comfort us. I know that is true and I am so grateful for the Atonement. I have learned to apply the atonement in a different way than I ever have before in my life. Elder Oaks said (in this last general conference), "Sometimes His (Jesus Christ's) power heals an infirmity, but the scriptures and our experiences teach that sometimes He succors or helps by giving us the strength or patience to endure our infirmities." I wanted with all my heart to be healed here in Spain so I wouldn't have to come home. But because I was not healed immediately, through the Atonement I have been given the strength and patience to endure this trial (and I might just still be working on that strength and patience) :) I hope we can all strive to use the Atonement daily throughout our lives in the hard times as well as the easy times. My challenge for you all this week (and forever) is to recognize the Hand of The Lord in your every day lives. Be grateful in every circumstance. Love everyone around you. Be happy. Don't take anything for granted. Share your testimony. And most importantly rely on your Heavenly Father and Savior Jesus Christ. They love each one of us so much and as we strive to accomplish their will we show our love for them too. I know this gospel is true and I love it with my whole heart! I want you all to know that I have a testimony of this gospel and it is stronger than it ever has been before! I know this Church is true without a shadow of a doubt. I love being a missionary more than anything I have ever done before! I'm going to miss Spain and wearing my chapa everyday, but I will continue to teach the gospel to everyone I can because I am a missionary no matter where I go in the world. Heavenly Father loves each one of His children and will guide us as we trust in Him. Sé que este es verdadero con todo mi corazón y digo estas cosas en el sagrado nombre de Jesucristo, amén.

I Love you all! Thank you for all you have done for me. REMEMBER... Heavenly Father knows best so just do His will and keep on smiling! :)

Con muchísimo amor de España,

Hermana Eyring